today..the day is just as normal as everyday..maybe there was some rain but the look is just as same as everyday..
what make today's different from other days?? confused!! that is what i feel today..im not a great person.. and we have so much differences than people can see..there's nothing fit us together..but still there is this feeling of wanna stay, wanna be, wanna cry, wanna smile, wanna lough, wanna do every single thing with him..thinking of him everyday, smile when suddenly saw him somewhere..this making my heart beating so fast..until i can even feel the pain on my chest..
even i know it is not fair..for me n for him..but still why!! why in the name of the earth i still think of that man..that "lovely perfect match prince charming Mr. nice guy"..i shouldn't think of him..but the more i neglect it the more it come..!! the hell is that??!!!
im angry of myself but at the same time im happy..that's weird..it may look like some freaking
happy on the face doesn't count in the heart..
cry as much as we can..express those idiot feeling, angry, ashamed, nervous, stupid..because we learn from experience..and experience itself make us who we r today..
judge no one..there's a long journey to go..a very long way, still so damn low below the earth..if u wanna touch the stars touch ur heart first, believe in urself than make a good way so that u won't be lost..
written by,
esterxanserveir
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